An extract from the book I\'m wrting

"I have always gone from happy to really sad..." I began, "my life has been full of ups and full of downs and never in-between. Sometimes, I feel really happy and I come up with justifications of why I was so upset, and sometimes it really helps.â?? They just kept listening, so I had to keep speaking, it was hard not to cry, "But after a while, this feeling. I really donâ??t know how to explain it, I just feel worthless and like I don't deserve to be around you guys, or have the things I do, and when the feeling comes I realise that it never really went away, no matter how hard I pushed it, or how greater justification I made.." I could barely look them in the eyes, they were both in tears and it killed me, it ******* killed me.