Borderlines

There was a long point in my life
Where I sat on the borderline
Sane or insane, butchering my own body
I was clearly loosing my mind
Tears of bitterness and being lonely
Tears that I thought would never stop
As time slowly passes on
I watch as each one drops
Scars all over my skin
Memories of how I used to deal
Some scars go so deep
That they never seem to heal
Even gashes left on the inside
That eat away at my soul
I thought I'd never find anyone to replace my blade
At least not anyone I could console
The moon rises
And life continues to go on
My scars remind me how much I won't be missed
That no one will care when I'm gone
I've waited for so long
For something to set me free
As my depression washes over my body
Devouring me into a red sea
Watch the blood trickle down
As the tears continue to fall
Each new cut to my body
Helps me add another stone to my wall
They put me on all these medications
But it still doesn't take away the pain
The question forever remaining
Am I crazy or am I sane
The blade comes closer
Tell me why I have to live
You don't truly know me
You don't know what I have to give
Make my marks
So deep you can see my bone
These are my borderlines
That I cross when I'm alone
I put myself in this prison
Each bar represents a blade
Adding each new bar
With each new cut I have made
When life gets tough, because you know it will
And I can't handle the strife
I know I will always have
My one trusty knife
I formed my own addiction
I poisoned my legs and my arms
For when life got me down
I came back to self harm
I know I'm alive
But inside I'm already dead
It's amazing how even though I'm numb
My arms can still bleed red
I feel no pain
I hold no regret
For if I have a friend
It's someone I haven't met
I pick up the razor
And watch the line appear
I have ruined my temple
Can't even look at myself in the mirror
So am I suicidal
Maybe, maybe not
I told you all once
But I'm just someone you all forgot
I stare death in the face
As he cowers from me in fear
I hold my bloody razor
That shows my crimson tears
For words I cannot speak
I add another line
Soon I will have no more skin
And I will eventually run out of time
I will die
And no one will notice
I was no one special
I'm someone that no one will miss
Some days I might be happy
But life gets tough sometimes
And as it continues to drag me down
I will continue to sit on my borderline....