I Hate the Way...

-- Sorry guys, know this is really shit, i just really needed a way to vent, anyway possible.. --

I hate the way I feel,
How I curl up and cry,
I hate the way I feel,
Hurt and wanting to die

I hate how i hate living,
But im still afraid of death,
I hate how im treated,
Not enough guts to confess

I hate how I cry,
All day and all night,
I hate how my answer to problems,
Is the slash of a silver knife

I hate my parents,
And the way im not loved,
i hate how I only see black,
not even white, the colour of a dove

I hate how im not worth anything,
Nothing, not at all,
I hate the way when I always think of this,
Silents tears start to fall.

I hate the way my friends dont know me,
How they think my lifes so great,
I hate the way they think my smiles true,
But really its a smile with no rate

I hate the way im invisible,
To so many people by the eye,
I hate the way they see me crying,
And just walk on right by

I hate the way I constantly feel this,
Numb, empty and all alone
I hate the way Im scared to get help,
Even to just pick up the phone.

I hate my life,
And the way it will always be,
But most of all,
I hate being me.