Daddys Girl...Part 3..

I was in shock when I signed in today,
I was in shock when I read that "Hey"
I couldn't believe for once you were there..
It was nice to just talk to you.. until you brought up the things you do.
Is it my fault were not close?! Don't sit there and say
"I miss you..We don't talk enough" I WAITED!
I waited and I waited and I waited... and for what
your good byes?
Is it my fault you were in jail?! No! it never was..
So how come I'm here beating myself up?!
I'm sick of trying to be perfect for you.. I'm sick of trying to live up to you!
I'm sick of pretending I'm perfect...But inside I'm a wreck..
I don't know...Maybe I would have turned out better if you were near.
But your never here! So let me ask you daddy..Was your little fix worth it?
Was it worth losing me? Maybe she'll always be here for you but I wont.
I'm stopping today.. I'm sick of waiting and sick of trying and sick of cutting..
I'm sick of crying.. Last night All I needed was you..
a "Hey Kels" a "Hey Bug" a "Hey sweetie" Anything!
I know you were on! Plain as day! I Saw you sign off...
I saw you switch to away.. Knowing you were there..and didn't want to talk to me..
It Hurt me inside..so very deeply..So I shredded and I cut and I Cried as I layed there..
I torn myself up inside and out...Its because of you...without a doubt.
Now its your fault I have to hide myself from mom..
Because she'd never understand the things I have done.
The scars and the cuts and pain thats inside...Now its your Burden.
Good luck trying to hide.
Tell me Daddy..Am I still your little girl?
Tell me Daddy...I'm going crazy in your world.