Me, my enemy

There are moments lately when I see me
Being the desperate person I used to be
This person I told you I so dearly despised
Is now coming through in my faulty designs
This person was desperate, sad and clichéd
Being this person left me distraught & dismayed
I want to turn round and take some steps back
Totally afraid that this will always be my trap

From the very first time you took my small hand
You told me that by me you would always stand
Giving small fragments that makes up the puzzle
All pieces of me that I give with great struggle
Those previous moments that left these sad scars
Have left me with issues that seem more than stars
Iâ??m wanting to stop me from taking this track
So, I beg of you often to please help me turn back.

You hold on so tightly thereâ??s not time for breath
Making me a fighter is what youâ??ve always stressed
Your desire you declared was everything I could be
Telling me there is no way you would set me free
The time came around when I decided to be open
That time was now and now I feel broken
Why did you let me speak all those passionate words?
Those words which taunt me now, my issues stir

I am fighting a war with my most equaled opponent
Itâ??s the one that knows me best and yes she knows it
So far in the battles I have triumphed and ruled them all
This time around I think theres a chance I might fall
Feeling so tired of this never ending exhausting war
Wishing that that the girl would die and I could stand tall
Looking in this long mirror now I see that its she
Itâ??s me that is fighting and looking back at me.