You need to know

There's something that you need to know
something that i hide
something from within my soul
that brings me shame not pride

underneath my glowing smile
is a cut up wrist and broken heart
i wonder is i were to die
would i even be missed

i know that i mean nothing
i know that you don't care
i know that you believe this smile
that I'm forced to wear

i want to say I'll be alright
but trust me its not true
my heart is slowly breaking
and i really wish you knew

everything I've said
that wasn't from my heart
it was just another cover
so you don't know I'm falling apart

i will not let you see
i will not cry
not in front of you
if i did i would die