Spiralling back

I feel like slicing my wrists
I hate the fact I feel like this
I just want you to go away
and leave me alone just for one day
stop trying to control me and my life
you'll never know but you drive me to the knife
I've come so far from my need for pain
but with one small comment you spiral me back again
mummy step away, take one huge step back
because you make me hate you and at myself I hack
just because theres no longer blood, no new scars
it doesn't mean that I no longer hate the way things are
stop asking questions, digging deep in me
I can't take dealing with you, leave me alone, just let me be