How can you define a best friend?
is it someone on who you can depend?
who will always be there in the end?
or is it just someone who understands?
there is no word that can define
the greatest person in your mind
you can only feel it deep inside
for your heart is incapable of lying
i had a friend who tried to lie
who kept it bunched up all inside
we used to be the best of friends
now our friendship has come to end
i blame myself for what had occurred
it was easier then to blame on her
i got scared and pushed her away
now she wont listen to what i say
my eyes are drenched from the tears
my mind has never been so unclear
crying used to be my biggest fear
now the tears just wont disappear
i don't know if it was her fault
honestly i really don't care at all
why should someone take the blame
when all we want is to end the pain
not knowing what I'm supposed to do
hurts just as much as losing you
i can no longer stand to search my mind
for something i may never find
as i watch you slowly slip away
a part of me is leaving everyday
in the end my faults wont matter
because I'll be gone all together
i keep feeding myself lies
that maybe i am not despised
somewhere inside i know you care
it's just hard to find out where
maybe one day you'll let me know
that i am not as bad as you tell me so
i hope that day will be here soon
cause i hate myself for losing you
