Front Porch Confessions

Each day I take a few moments
To sit outside on my porch--
The landmark of so many memories
And bad decisions--
In the hopes that you'll walk by.
A gravel path is all that divides us
And serves as a bridge for our friendship
That neither one of us can seem to cross.
If only I could take back those words
And restore the joy in your smile.
If only I didn't know the truth
And could regain the light in my eyes.
This decision has only shown me
Just how important you are
And the goodness you provide.
I never wanted this.
I'd imagined revealing the tender side of my heart,
A side you had never seen,
And you welcoming it with open arms.
It just wasn't meant to be.
Looking back, I could've lived without knowing
If it meant keeping the greatest thing
God has ever bestowed upon me.
I'm afraid that I'll never again hear your footsteps
Leading up to my porch.
I hope you know that there'll always be
An empty chair waiting for you,
Along with an open door.