I.Dont.Want.This.For.Him

This little girl is deep asleep and no one knows of what she dreams.
Deep inside her head all she hears is deadly screams she sees all her problems arise and she soons start to cry.
Her thoughts all go to one and the only things she thinks about is dying.

.She Wakes Up.

No one knows what she's denying
Thoughts of ..

.x.Quiet Suicide.&.A Blade On Her Wrist.x.

She smiles and clenches her fist. She walks away from the people that she loves and then she see's him. Her bestfriend.

People say that they're perfect for eachother. But they dont want that. He's perfect for her just to be there. And she's perfect for him because she cares.

She goes to sit next to him. And they talk for a while. He gets up and gives her a hug.

He told her he didn't want her anymore. He doesn't want to talk like before. He told her to trust him he has to do this. That she'll never understand.

But the truth is. He doesn't understand.

She runs through her front door. And went to the bathroom calmed herself down. And went back to the living room. Gave her parents a kiss told them she loved them. She went to her room and sat down. She wrote a note to her sister telling her she loves her and everything is alright. That what she's doing is right.
She walked by the computer and decided to write to him about what she is about to do tonight.

And.So.She.Wrote.

I want you to know I love you. More than anything. More than anybody. When you see this. I'll be in a better place. Looking down upon you. Please don't forget our past. Remember all the laughs. Dont forget that time that we hung out. Had a blast and then got drunk. We were in so much trouble we couldn't talk for weeks. But we went through it together. And stuck it out. I can't do it without you so this is what I've decided to do. Dont cry for me. I'll Never Forget You. I love you and thanks for always being there for me.
Sincerely,
.xHer

.Message.Sent.

He was walking toward her house to give her her friendship bracelet that she had dropped .

He knocked on the door and she walked into her closet. He shook her dad's hand and she took out her knife. He opened her door. And she screamed for him. He ran to her closet and opened the door. He saw her blood and looked into her eyes. Grabbed her hand and wouldn't let go. He picked her up and took her to the bed sat down and saw that she was dead. No pulse for her rate. This was no game that she had played. It had happened but she was not the blade.

Her parents ran in and saw him drenched in blood. With a note next to where she landed with a thud.

.Tell.Him.To.Check.His.Email.&&.To.Get.Another.x.Best.Friend.x.

He hugged her close as her mom read the note aloud. She stood there stunned and then he vowed. To not let go of her until she was pronounced

.dead. Because every thought in his head. Was about her.

When he looked into her eyes he saw the memories. Their past together. The good times they were always happy.

He sat in the car with her in his arms. Everything was so far. There was no sound. They ran into the hospital and the doctors said .
Son I'm sorry but she's surely dead.
He ran outside with her in his arms. Ran as far as he could hoping to get out of town. Everything in him seem to shut down. And he finally broke. and started to cry. Every tear landed on her and ran down her face. He screamed for her hoping she could hear him.
.And.She.Could.

She walked up to the pearly gates and to Saint Peter she did plead. Please let me back. Make me alive. I need to be with him. She asked to speak to God. And out he came. He said child why did you do this can't you see that he's in pain. She screamed that she didn't know. But she was in pain too. She couldn't stick it out anymore she just wanted everything to be through. He told her he could do no more for what is done is done. She knelt down at the edge of cloud one. And looked down upon him. Saw his tears and saw his face. Wished she could touch him and wished she was out of this place. God touched her shoulder as she began to cry.

The day of the funeral he sat in the back. He was all dressed in black. He saw her face one last time. But all through the funeral he buried is face and tried not to cry. He wanted to go crazy and wanted to scream. But he let it pass and kept telling himself it was a dream.

At the burial they laid her down. A tear fell down his cheek. And then it began to rain on the town.

He walked away and went down the street. Everywhere he looked he saw another memory. He missed her terribly. He sat on the curb and wish he would die.

He started to cry. Life isn't worth it anymore he would scream. He told himself to wake up from this dream. He looked to the sky and saw how blue it was and then he saw her face and he began to cry harder.

She looked down upon him and wished it would end. She didn't want this for him.