Heartache

Do I set myself up for heartache?
Do I like being used?
I put myself in these situations all of the time
And for what?
There must be pleasure in it somewhere
But all I see is the pain
The heartache
Heartache?
How can I keep giving myself more?
You'd think once you've had so much
You wouldn't be able to take anymore
But I can
And I do
But for what?
Sometimes I feel there is no love
No love left in my heart to give
But I keep finding myself in love
In love with about every guy who makes me feel good
Why?
Am I that insecure?
Do I not get enough love from my friends and family?
Heartache?
No more!
I can't keep doing it
I say that, but is it true?
Am I lying to myself?
I know I will go out looking for it
Tomorrow and the next day and the next
Heartache?