For what it is worth...

From the moment of thank you, lessons have been learned
Divided by my actions, because of feelings of replaced and jealousy
My words have no more means, but they help you in another friendship
Him: I regret everything, You: no regrets just lessons
Him: Well I have learned from them and I am sorry, We cannot forget May 15th
You: Happy birthday, Him: Thanks, that means a lot to me
If you are wondering how I know this, that is because I was speaking for him
While he was woozy, I spoke for him and helped him
You think he would speak like that to you, no wonder he was so surprised on the 20th
Wow, the 20th, my birthday. What ever happened to action speak louder than words?
But my words can only help other and not myself.
The same words I said for him, were the same words I said for myself
So for what ever its worth to you, I am sorryâ?¦
You have made me understand free, but I have build myself a prison
I have said I given up because I am done making a fool of myself
If only you could understand how bad I feel
After I have tried and tried, your cousin said you only hear the bad sides
I offered you love, but you rejected that just like my apologizes
I am sorry I am blue, I never meant to hurt you
I told you my missed up life because you told me I could tell you anything
Yet, on my darkest days, I still found a way to say three words to you
Maybe you do only hear the bad, because I am now unforgiving
If only you could see how sorry I am, not see the good byes
So for what its worth, I am sorryâ?¦
I used to doubt myself and say things to put myself down
Well, it seems to be true because I am nothing but a jerk
You heard words from me that you should have never heard
You deserve better because you mean more than what I showed you that night
I was over my head that time and just lost control
You told me to just forget about you, but that is impossible for me
Before it was just you and me, then you and him, now its just you with another
All I am left with is what was, but I will still wish you happiness
A word for strong feelings is hatred, and I know you have that for me
So I cannot expect anything of you anymore
All I am saying is lessons have been learned
So for whatever its worth, I am sorryâ?¦