Trying never helps

Souless
broken
i try to heal
try to make it trough my day
never works
i hold it in till the end of the day or when i cant take it.....
i cut to make myself feel better....
i cut light SO light u can barely see it
thats not real cutting...lets call it precut......thats all....
i try to heal i really do but i end up the same
I'm trying to get better....
why isn't it working
am i getting worse........
I'm trying to keep myself steady
but i end up falling again....
all i can see is darkness around me....
i'm like a broken angel thts falling to the death of hell........
without its wings to protect me....

*falling and whispers* help me.....