A letter to thee

I understand people ask for your strength but dear god i need guidance help me fix my mistake.
i worry about all the things people say and because of this my baby is dead today.
i think how everyday day would be if my baby boy was here with me i was so young god but i know thats not an excuse i should of asked u What i should do.
but instead i took everyone Else's word when they said i would lose my man if i told him about a new future we would have to plan.
now I'm alone god and i put my fate in your hands to controll but if you cant forgive me god i will understand i made the biggest mistake and shouldnt be able to let the memories go.