My Stupid Promise

I made a promise
to a few of my friends
that my obsession with guys
would come to an end

I'm finding this promise
a very hard deed
my obsession with guys
is something i need

The reason i need
this obsession with guys
is because i can't tell
anymore lies

For three months now
I've been in denial
keeping my love secret
was a very hard trial

My only problem, really
with this guy now
is that my other friend
is gonna have a cow

She'll do this because
he's her ex-boyfriend
her depression is horrible
but that needs to end

Her depression in bad
yes, this is true
but her depression
is affecting me too

I found out yesterday
her ex liked me back
now i must decided
which relation to crack

My friendship with friends
or my love with this guy
i don't want to lose either
and i ask myself "Why?"

Why must i always
have decisions to make?
Why can't life be
on huge peice of cake?

Why did i make
that promise of mine?
I can't really keep it
and i'm starting to pine

This decision is hard
it makes me sad, too
but let me ask this,
What would you do..?"

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