I Lost What I Never Had

Going through a life, living a lie
Not yet ready, to say goodbye
Living reality, full of hate
What I thought was love, was all fake

Thinking it was love, was just a mistake
Hoping for help, but it came to late
Lost what I thought I had
Killed his chances, of being a dad

Living with regret, a feeling of loss
Thoughts I never had, what I felt I lost
Love of what I never had, but what I thought I did
Hate for loosing it, its not easy to forgive

*this is a little weird, but its about a miscarriage*
*any comment will be returned
thanks and love Mel*