Hate me

This is so hard for me to do. you can barley understand my words through all my tears. i want you to hate me, loathe me, leave me. run away far and make a better life for yourself. one you can't have with me. further and further, your falling into my world. i love you to much to destroy you. forget me, i never existed. wake up from your nightmare, let the wind blow away my memory. how can i hurt something i love so much? how can i destroy so much potential? drowning in your tears. swimming against the tide. floating off into the horizon, listening to your parting words. "how can you do this to me"