One more lost soul

One More Lost Soul

She sits down and smiles
She tries not to cry
Her friends are oblivious
And just walk on by

She holds it all in
But her worlds falling apart
Secrets she hides
Along with her heart

A beautiful and happy girl
Is what they all see
She whispers quietly
â??Just try and be me!â??

Why all the fake smiles?
And why does she pretend?
Her life is so colorless
Wrong signals she sends

Cut off from reality
She prays itâ??s not real
Her life at home
She can not deal

But she stays quiet
And doesnâ??t let any one know
How she wishes things were different
And wishes to let go

Life used to be precious
But fate stepped in
An innocent girl
Drowned in sin

Always tired and hungry
Always feeling week
Some things she remembers
Makes tears fall down her cheeks

Things she tries to forget
Haunt her in her dreams
But wonderful and joyful
Is what she seems

Wrong decisions and regrets
Wrong words to say
Permanent damage
That builds everyday

One more confused girl
Struggling to be strong
Yet no one can see
When something is wrong

But sheâ??s used to it now
Pretending she doesnâ??t exist
Alone in this world
She wonâ??t be missed

Slowly she is suffocating
Because of all this stress
A few f**ked up people
Left her in this mess

All the pain and all the hurt
Sheâ??s experienced over the years
Endless nights alone
Sheâ??s spent in tears

But itâ??s just too easy
To be some one your not
Especially when this fake Barbie
Is all youâ??ve got

Se sheâ??ll come to school again
And smile with all her might
Her secret breakdown
That continues every night

One day she will give up
And she will no longer speak
The smile that fades away
With each passing work

She thinks no one will understand
So why bother to even try?
One more lost soul
Waiting to die