How is it ok?

I fall to my knees in despair
fighting back the tears so long hidden

there u stand looking at me
i hate u seeing my tears
in that instant that u see my tears
u hold me and tell me it will be ok

that she will be ok.
i cannot respond but i pray u r right
then u tickle me until i laugh
before saying theres that beautiful smile

even though all we eva will be is friends i feel better knowing u are there in my times of need.

i have finally found my Saviour.
the one who is always gonna be there for me in my hour of need.

but for now i cannot call out i am too ashamed to be like this

i feel nothing and not one of my friends is by my side to comfort me.

the torment of not knowing how my friend is doing.
the fear that my mum has another cancerous lump after only just completing radiotherapy.
the fear that i cannot stand tall as i once did

just please let it all be ok.
i will pray that it is ok
i don't know what to do if i truly am alone