Just my Dad's fun

I feel like a sex toy
That is all I ever really was to him,
Held down, and played with.

No feelings or emotions
just a hollow body
A child's mind
And my heart wrenching screams

This tore me apart
No one ever heard me
or so it seems.

Used, and tossed to the side
always trying to run and hide.
My soul forever taken.

I will never be the same
I'm torn to little pieces
pieces of me gone

My mind is like a whirlwind
Never really slowing down
My heart is frozen
from the hate

I need this all to end
Before it's all too late

These memories attacking me
Driving me insane
I just want this all to make sense.

This little girl used and abused
Simply tossed away

I never knew
what love was
and now the preception I have is holding me back

Worthless, useless, merley a toy.
Just my Dad's fun
Is all I ever was.

My voice gone
I could never speak
The pain is restless
It hasnhasn'tststoppedped in weeks.

No one understands
How dark my world is
How I cannot escape
How the nightmares never quit

My dreams have always
Been crushed
I wish I could slit my wrists
And watch the blood rush

I can't give up
I need to fight
No matter how much
My body is shaken in fright

Just a sex toy, a little girl

Her innocence stolen
Her memories forgotten

It's all attacking me, forced to be a toy
So easily destroyed

A little girl, a child, a baby
Simply grew up
Was tossed into
This unknown world

It was time for me to be a big girl
No more dolls
no more playing games

I had to listen
Or my
Punishment was always worse.

Scared to speak
Paralyzed in fear
Afraid to acknowledge
everything that is real

Running away from all that I'm afraid of.