This whole time I thought that it was your fault.
When all along it was I who couldn't face up to the truth.
I'm the one who let my guard down.
Who began trusting to easily.
When I finally learn that I am at rock bottom.
I will look up and see only my many pathetic attempts.
I regret allowing anyone to understand some part of me.
Only to realize that the same tormenting pain is returning.
Now I must live up to my reoccurring fears.
I can not place this blame on anyone but myself.
I hope that you can forgive me for my sudden departure.
Believing that it was the world I was ashamed of.
But now I see that I am my own enemy.
That myself has been unfaithful and distrusting.
Revealing all my mistakes to the unknown.
How can I have been so naive as to consider being careless?
For now I have to tackle each obstacle over again.
This time I am afraid that I might collapse.
I wish I did not have to walk this path alone.
Because I have seen it to many times.
And this journey could be the ending of me. -
