I hate myself.

I look in the mirror,
and i hate what i see,
hate what Ive become,
and what i will be,
i hate myself for hurting you,
I'm sorry yet again,
i hate the tears,
and i hate the rain,
i hate myself coz Ive screwed up.
I'm going to admit it,
and be a man at last.

No amount of sorrys,
or apologizing will do,
i hate myself for wrecking it for you.
you say its ok, i know thats not true,
i made things really bad,
i don't know what to do,
I'm gonna bite the bullet,
and swallow down my pride,
its time to be a man,
not just one at heart,

I'm going to bear the cost,
and any consequence,
I'm going to suffer in silence,
for the mistake Ive made.
i just want you to know,
that baby i love you,
i really hate myself
for losing you.