Looking outside and relizing

Looking outside my window..
Covered in tears that I cry inside..
Looking out in the rain
All alone..
With no one to hold at night..
Day..
No one to hold me when I cry..
No one to walk me home..
No one to make me smile..
Laugh..
To get lost in a daze to..
I question to myself..
AM I that ugly..
That bad of a personality...
Am I that fat..
Whats wrong with me..
I curl to a little ball...
Crying..
I realized as I walk through the city
Every smile there is a tear..
and almost every tear there is a pain..
but why do i feel so alone....
Alone in this world...just me..