It's too late now!!

My life is vivid,
My life is strange,
My heart is burning in pain,
Is this the anger?
Is this the stranger within me,
Telling me my life is over!

My heart is pumping,
But my brain has gone,
Scars upon me,
memories afloat,
i still remember the old me,
But it seems i have been taken over!

Tears drown me,
Fears surround me,
Pain seeping through my paper like skin,
I get everything that I don't want,
I don't want to be like this anymore,
But it's too late!

The blade slices through my skin,
Blood trickles like water,
The pain is reaccuring,
But nothing that i have not felt before.
But still it doesnt work.

I give up on life,
I give up on helping people,
When all i ever get is it back in my face,
I try and fail,
when will i learn?

It is too late now,
I have gone too far,
Im on my deathbed but this will never be the answer!
Never....