I loved her but i made a mistake

I loved her but

I make a mistake

I was to different

I took to many risks

now I lost her

I can't seem to

replace the emptiness inside me

with pain or anything

I can only wish and hope

she will come back

I don't know if her will

I don't know if she could

but the emptiness i feel

can not be filled

try pain

try sorrow

try what ever you want

but there is not relief

to this pain of mine

I'll try to go on

I'll try to stay strong

but i just don't know

what i can do

I try and try

to speak to her

but if I say anything

I might make a mistake

and hurt me more

because I don't know if i

could have a conversion without

bring me and her up so i sit alone

like the outcast i am

no one the share

the pain deep down inside

I hate getting close then blowing it away

thats what hurts me not anything else

so I'll try hard but i want her back

I will wait till the earth stops moving

just to hear what i might want to hear

so my heart is broken nothing i can do

my shell has closed again and my

emotions have come to a close

i know this isn't that good if a poem but hey whatever this is my first blog anything and i its for Jessyca the love of my life like say in the poem ill wait till you have your thoughts clear and i hope and dream that you will say yes but its all up to you know i will always be yours you hold the key to my emotions you hold the key to my heart ill let you keep them no matter what and i know somethings are miss spelled and if you know them send them to me and i will change them if i can