I miss you

I miss you.
even though i see you everyday
but I'm not so sure you see me

i remember when we were young
we'd swing at the park and play at your house
we'd make believe as if we were princesses
we'd play in rivers during those hot summer days
we'd take little walks just to get away

then we started growing up
and i was taken away from my home town
where we had our adventures
where we laughed and danced
where the rain falls down on your face and you can actually breathe
and ever since we met up
things just haven't been the same

whatever happened to those two girls
why did we become so different
how come one feels so damn alone
while the other seems to be just the opposite
why does one tell her story with her writing and her paintbrush
why does the other sing to the world
her voice like an angel
and she has no clue
just how beautiful she really is

i remember that summer i left
i remember looking out the back window as we drove away
tears streaming from my eyes
just like they still are today
i know things happen for a reason
but that doesn't mean i have to accept it

I'm not ready to forget
i don't think i ever will be
every night i lie awake
i just cant seem to rest my mind

i had a dream the other night
we were by that tree
the one in your old yard
and the river was running nearby
everything was so peaceful
so serene,so easy

i woke up crying
body shaking
i don't want this anymore
I'd give it all up to go back to those days

just one day
just one day of when we were still
young
when we were so brave,so carefree
just one day without this burden on my shoulders
all i want is one day
just one day when i can still call you, best friend.

i love you,always will.