Will you ever be...

Where do I start
I don`t even know
But never before
Have I ever felt this low

I feel like puking
My stomachs in knots
And before my eyes
There`s flashes of dots

I feel so awful
My hole body aches
But the worst of all
Is the feeling that I`m fake

I know what`s the reason
What`s caused all of this
And under other circumstances
It would have been a bliss

I couldn`t stay ignorant
So I took a test today
How can this be
There`s just no way

But I can`t ignore it
The truths right in front of me
Even though I don`t know
How this ever came to be

There`s quite a predicament
I have put myself in
This is probably the worst
That I have ever been

If things were different
I would have been filled with joy
But instead I just feel worthless
Like a used little toy

Now I have to make a choice
I am the only one to blame
But all I want is to hide
And my head bend in shame

I`m pregnant you see
And carrying a child
And I am so sorry
That I to anyone did lie

It was the best of times
When I went threw this before
And this time I know
What I would have in store

A child I have inside
A precious little baby
But will you ever grow up
All I can say is maybe...