Die and Die again

The sky is dark, the sun is set
No more light, dark as death
No more life, no horizon
Time now seems like fiction
Illusions, delusions, making me paranoid
Cant find a sole way to heal
Cant find a way to fill that void
Still I live and live in pain
I live my life to die and die again.
Anything will be better than this
Why isnt ignorance, for me, a bliss?
Tension builds up inside of me
I want a little room to breathe.
I look to the sky but see only darkness
No sign of light, the day is far away
And upon the ground beneath my feet
Only blood and burnt ashes, being carried away
I look around with only darkness to find
Or maybe, I have gone just blind
But, then, why do I get glimpses of me
Being someone Im not meant to be?
And, why, then, I feel this pain?
Why do I live, just to die again?
I am falling in black void, so deep
Crying out for help, someone please catch me
All I can see is that I am leaving the world behind
And although I try, I cant change my mind
I am dead, I am meant to be
But, the irony, cant YOU see
Through this all, I live in pain
And wake to live
And die again.