A slow death

My pillow stained with tears,
As reality slips away.
I should have made a life,
Instead of wasting all those years.

Iâ??m sorry it had to end like this,
Itâ??s not fair for all of you.
Your sure to find me soon enough,
My bones stiff, my lips blue.

But hopefully you will see,
That my life was not worth living.
Iâ??m leaving now, into the light,
I hope youâ??ll be forgiving.

But the end is not the end,
Just another step in this story of sorrow.
Maybe you will go away,
But the pain will be there tomorrow.

My life slowly drains away,
my soul now has to stay.
I will wonder now forever lost,
Iâ??ll be here through the sun and frost.