How could you not believe me

How you going to say i played you
how you going to say you hurt
how you going to say you wasted your time trying to get my number
how you going to say your not the greatest anymore because you cant have me.

how you could not believe me and why every time i try to tell you that you didn't get played and I'm serious about you
every time i try to tell you that I'm sorry for hurting you.
every time i try to say that you didn't waste your time and every time i try to tell you that your still the greatest because I'm still with you.

how could you not believe me
I'm upset, hurt confused and mad
i don't know how to react
i never felt like this before
just because i care about you and don't want to lose you because i never met a guy like you before
i even think that "i love you"

But i don't want to admit that i love you because every time i try to love somebody i end up hurting my self and i cant take that anymore so please just try to understand how i fell and lets work things out.