Fear
washing back over me again
i thought i was past this
ive been writing
and now
all i feel is fear
all i want to do is delete my account
and stop writing
she read it
granted i showed her my poems
but now i dont feel comfortable
i feel scared
and alone
she's hurting me
and my poems are hurting her
everything i write will hurt her
which means i cant write
which means everything stays inside
which means i end up right back where i started
i feel bad inside
empty, scared
alone
i hate being scared
and i need to write
which means i have to start all over again
i have to hide everything i write
change names
just because she read something
that made her upset
which has caused a lot of bullshit
which has made me scared to write
again...
