Remember what I said...

Remember what I said
As long as I'm a memory
Ill never be dead

They say
The best things in life
Go unseen
That why we cry
In the Blackness of the night
And the stars appear
Only when the foolish
Close their eyes
For they believe
Every thing is all right.

I couldn't take it any more
My eyes were like the winter rains
I was tired of creating a river
Waiting to be pulled under.

I beg you not to cry, as it was my choice
I prayed for this moment
I guess I should have told you
But my soul was broken
But in my action
Will be the start of a new creation.

With in the cracks of my broken soul
Weeps the red tears of Joy
But as time lingered by
I thought of the past
It never seemed real
The future never seemed possible
Its not reality I despise
But the waiting
Makes the suffering seemed never ending
Evan the site of my unhealed scares
Reminds me, the past was real
Witch made me feel imprisoned.

It is not your fault
I wanted the key
To unlock the door
And let me free
My be I should have told you
But I now you wouldn't understand
You would have told me to stop being silly
I know we never really spoke
We were never really that close
I don't now how you're going to react
My family
You're like aliens to me
Never knowing your birthdays
Or you never tell me.

No more tears or remorse
As are laughter bleeds
In are river of greed
No more can you see
See what can never be.

The tears drowned my sorrow
But the river is never ending
The river is to beep
Now it to late
The pain can no longer be washed a way.

And just to let you now
I was comply sane when I took that knife
And made the every motion
That ended my life
I don't want you to feel sad
As it put a forgotten smile
To my forgotten face.

I didn't what to leave
Without saying my last goodbye
For this is the only memory
Your ever have of me.

I'm sorry it's not pretty
I'm sorry it's not much
I'm sorry for the bloodstain
I'm sorry for the mess

For I am not dead
Please, remember what I said

As long as I'm a memory
I will never be dead.