Dont

Laying on my bed, staring with sightless eyes
Afraid to close them, afraid to drift away into sleep
Ashamed and disgusted, I lay in my own self hate
This isnt the person who Im meant to be
Trying desperately not to think of the things that will keep me awake all night
But by doing so the images Ive fought to keep suppressed devour me whole
And Im drowning, in my past, and in your eyes
Please dont speak because your words will destroy me
And dont touch me because I cant live with the bruises you will leave
Dont even look at me, Ill never be good enough anyway