A Battle Between My Heart & Mind

I've had to hide my heart for so long.And now, you say you've cried yourself to sleep lately, wanting me?

Your tone speaks of love, and wanting, and my hopes jump back up on that cliff, where i stand at the bottom, gently coaxing them back down.

I have learned to stop hoping,because my hopes die so often with you, theres no point in even trying.

I hear you voice, I understand the words, the meanings, and i have to choke back tears.

My hopes are slowly growing in my chest,i feel it in my stomach.

Yet my mind screams, "No, stop!You're setting yourself up again."

My heart whispers,"but cant you hear her tone,her words? Cant you hear what shes saying?"

It's a never ending battle, my mind says its only because shes lonely, because she cant be a lone for long.

My heart says its because she loves me, because shes realized, and wants me back.

But I'm not one to fall for matters of the heart twice.

So my mind wins, i wont fall twice, to be slapped back to reality with the heart wrenching pain of my tears as i hear those words again.

This Battle wont ever end, but my mind can deny it all forever, and as long as I'm in pain because of myself,
This Battle will be over in my mind.