Reasons For Change

I met these new people and thought everything would remain the same
And yet I stand here with a couple new reasons for change
I walk through the halls gossip smacking everyone in the face
It makes me laugh but I still move forward and at a slower pace
I take in the sounds and the look of everyone around
And I take a second and realize that I'm not on the ground
Everything was so bleak and blurry until I moved up here
Now I've got no reasons to be in fear
I once remained in the black of the night
Never coming out until I saw the light
The spark from my new friends lit up my world
And at this sight I let my wings unfurl
Never will I go down again I will always stand up
And not again will I have to worry of my thoughts returning corrupt

My friends from my previous city, yes, they were always there
And since they lived around the corner it was easy to show they care
But now that I'm hours away from what I found comfort in
I've got my old feelings returning to the heart within
I tried to shut the feelings out and always allow my old friends access to me
But it's getting harder to keep my life open just for the blind to see
I say I'm giving up on them all but I wouldn't be here without them
And it's true without them all by my side my happiness is condemned
But there isn't anything I can do about the distance that lies
And the cruel truth of not seeing my beautiful friends is in their eyes
It's hard to sit here and know the only time we'll spend together
Is with the photographs and carefully thought out yet empty promises of forever
My soul is screaming for a bit of salvation but it can't be heard
I know that you all love me but love is just a word

So these are my reasons each carefully thought out but not yet planned to follow through
But I know that I've got at least one friend always there for what I say and do
No matter what happens I'll keep this smile and it shall be locked on my face
Never again worry about the future or my past again chase
I've learned that I need to look to the upside of everything that looks down
For that's the only way I will find myself standing on the ground
And if I'm standing I will not fall
And for the first time in three years I will stand tall
I've also learned not to put your whole life on hold for one friend
Because even without them beside you they can break your heart again and again
But I know now to not conceal myself behind a mask
And to never regret any one of my tracks
For no matter how much you love someone there's always the time you have to let them go
Because the future is around the corner and what it beholds you'll never know

Copyright, Taylor Brown, 2006-01-30