Hating Myself 4 Loving You

Why cant I just get over you?
Why cant I just forget you?
Why do I have to be in so much pain?
Why does my heart still contain a stain?
Will all this ever be over?
Will I ever be ready for another lover?
Im sick of always being so alone
Im sick of not having anyone to call on my phone
Im sick of always being left alone to cry
Even though I know that our love was just a lie
Im still not ready to get another guy
Dont get me wrong, Im glad that we said goodbye
For I no longer want you
I actually started hating myself for trusting you
Hating myself for wasting my time with you
Hating myself for wanting you
Hating myself for needing you
Hating myself for being with you
Hating myself for loving you
And finally, hating myself for not being able to get over you
I dont know why Im unable to forget you
I cant forget all what we have been through
The talks we talked
The laughs we laughed
The jokes we joked
The smiles we smiled
The kisses we kissed
The hugs we hugged
Every single moment we ever shared
Is forever stuck in me
Theyve somehow become a part of me
Every single time I awake
Every single move I take
Every single decision I make
Youre always in my thoughts, always in my mind
Causing me to constantly remember our past, always looking behind
Therefore a new chapter I cant begin, a new lover I cant find
For Im unable to move on with you still stuck in my mind
The awkward thing is that despite all the lies you said
All the dreams I had that are now dead
All the pain in my heart, which is on a constant spread
I should now hate you for causing all that but instead
A smile still forces its way on to my face whenever I think of you
And all the happy moments I once shared with you
For my heart is still unable to accept the fact that it has been lied on
And that youre now forever gone
What Im trying to tell you
Is that Ill still forever love you