Eating Disorder (ANA/MIA)

I was born into a life of alcoholism, and a lot of anger.

Which caused a lot of problems with my family.

Everything I do is judged by my mom and my Grandma.

But it is always based on my weight.

My mother was always telling me your to fat go on a diet, my grandmas always agreed.

So I finally got tired of all the criticism, so I decided to not eat.

Everyone asked me isn't hard. I'm like not really once you get over the hunger pains your fine, I always tell them just to exercise.

But then one day I got extremely hunger so I then binged, I knew that it wasn't aloud to keep all that food down so I purged.

I am now in a place of starving and purging and I don't want stop what I am doing even though I know it is killing me.

I told my mom and she took me to doctors like she cared but if she cared she would know it has gotten worse and not better.

My eating Disorder is ruining my life but I guess it soon will, b/c I cant keep living this way.

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