My State Of Mind

Can I trust you,
With my heart,
Fate has fallen upon me,
And has torn me apart.
Crying for help,
I cry for you,
The hopeless life,
Torn between two.
A life not worth it,
Living in tears,
Worst of all,
My deadly fears.
To cry not tears,
But blood instead,
Have thoughts of death,
Running through your head.
Twisting and turning,
Sadness takes a twist,
My shadowing soul,
Fades into the mist.
That disposable hope,
That intolerable life,
Choking my soul,
And thrusting my knife.
A deeply scorned thought,
Back into a bloody scene,
A feeling lost long ago,
A heartless love to be dreamed.
Thoughts of night falling over my already black sky,
Wishing for no hope,
No tears,
Just to die.
Fade into a pessimistic state,
Of no hope or life,
To give,
Or take away.
The terms of my fidelity,
Only fill a blank page,
To owe nothing,
But a sinful wage.
To give up my life to hate,
And take nothing in return,
A torture to endure,
For a soul still to learn.
That feeling I thought,
Was sojourn and true,
A lost love tortured,
All because of you.
Love is nothing to fool with,
Not even try to play,
Or you'll end up like me,
One sad, lonely day.