Too blind to notice

I scream, i shout my pain in their faces.
to let them know im hurting on a daily basis.

But they just look right past me.
my suffering they cannot see.

Or that iv caused my own self harm,
dont even notice the imprints in my arm.

I starve for perfection,
because i cant stand my own reflection.

i hate the boldges in my body.
howd i become this "thing" staring back at me?

For i feel i am disgusting,
im lower the scum, im nothing!

and if changing means skipping a meal,
that to me is a reasonable deal.

so have my actions yet become uncontrollable?
or is it the world that is to blind & to gullible?