I lost my g/f in a car wreck

Silent tears flow down my cheeks,
Leaving stains as I do weep.
"It'll be alright," you said.
"Just give me another chance," you pleaded.

I listened to all your false hopes.
I believed in your soothing words.
I smiled my fake smile,
And pretended to be all right.

Deep down I know,
It'll never be the same,
I can't go back.
Why did you cause me this pain?

You cut through my built up walls,
Brought me into a new light.
Showed me hope and love again,
But then I saw you with her that night.

My eyes sting from crying.
My throats hoarse from weeping.
My heart aches from the torture.
My body's crippled and tired.

There's no more hope,
I know the truth.
So stop your lies,
And let me go.

this is how i felt when i lost my girlfriend in a car crash 1 year ago