Have you ever

Have you ever felt like you alone even though you are surrounded by people? Have you ever felt that you cant go on more day pretending that im happy? have you have just had enough pain that you put a gun to your head and just about kill yourself? i always have this feeling that no one will ever get these feeling. i just hold it in. i hold everything. my pain, sadness, my desire to die, and all the anger.its getting to be to much. Have you ever just pulled the trigger???