I have found myself in the most terrifying place I have ever been.
I have a surreal vision of the journey that led me here.
As I begin to gain insight as to the reality of it all,
The helplessness becomes disheartening.
The place I am in seems to be a place I am unable to escape.
This is a frightening place to be.
Knowing along the way where I was being led, I somehow found myself in this daunting position.
I chose to dismiss any fears and instinctual knowledge.
The blatant disregard created an illusion, which allowed my conscience Peace.
I look at my life, my inner self, and there is nothing left inside of me I wish to possess.
This is a frightening place to be.
I have disappointed myself in every aspect.
The total awareness of what I have done is useless when I am incapable of owning my condition in life.
I long to see the revelation that has come from this, so that I may allow myself forgiveness.
Without forgiveness my spirit will lie dormant inside of me.
The longer it rests, the more I lose.
I do not want to be frightened anymore.
