For My Vinnie

I live with my hate and with all my anger
For the day I regret, I led you to danger
I feel so responsible for what I have done
Do you forgive me my love, for what has become?

I would have given my life and my soul just to save you
I live with regret; I was unable to come through
I lost my heart when I heard you cry
I lost my life when I saw you die

My heart has a hole where you used to be
I am so sorry Vinnie, I wish it were me
I would give it all up without second thought
Losing you without question, this lesson was taught

Each day I am alive exists in pain and despair
I never realized that you were my air
They say it will be okay and I will survive
Then why do I hate that I am still alive

The image this day has burned in my head
I cannot say how many times I wish I were dead
I do not know if I will ever be able to forgive;
Myself for the day, which you ceased to live

Not a day goes by where I do not think of you
Someone please tell me what is it that I am supposed to do?
I am thankful for each day you made my world shine
This, I will always, be grateful is mine