If i was you ....

You think I'm messed up
and screwed up in the head
and i guess your right
but if i was you, you would be dead

I'll start at the beginning
when i was just a little girl
smuggling drugs and climbing threw
other peoples windows, my head's in a twirl

next when I'm only a few years older
my uncle dies and I'm alone in the world
seven years old and the head of the family
could you cope if you were just a small girl?

a year later my best friend goes missing
taken away and not know if she would return
and when she did come back the stories she told
of how she was raped, beaten, starved and burned

two more year pass and again tragedy strikes
another friend gets hit by a car and over she went
as i sit there with her in my arms I'm watching her die
as i look up to that bridge to that her deadly descent

when i was eleven it was the worse day of my life
it was the day i was dragged into a alley and raped
i still feel so dirty and wrong because of what he did
i wish at birth my life i could have escaped

so yes OK I'll confess I'm messed up
and screwed up and twisted in the head
but like i said if it had happened to you
you wouldn't be here you would be dead

(everything that is in this poem is true and really happened to me or my friends or family. this was very upsetting to write but i needed to get it off my chest once and for all.Mazie.X)