I love you now

I love you now

thats all i can get put up to say
when you said your moving away
when you said that you have a ring for another
and that other is my brother

i love you now
is what my heart felt
thats why it fell out my mouth
i should have been upset
but i wasn't
i just didn't understand
why did you have to love a man

i love you now
is what i said
now I'm alone in my bed
i drove you away
but it's okay
you found another love anyway

its not that your gay
that I'm mad
its that you were glad
happy with glee
to walk away from me
like i drove you to this
i could punch you with my fist

i love you now
is what i say
when i look at the trains
and see your face
i love you now
but your gone
i hope you love me
after you left
because i still love
you

*this poem doesn't show hate to any person of any sexuality, i have family whose gay, its approved, but view it with open eyes, not shallow ones, please*