I cant what i feel in words
I just don't know what to say
The pain inside is like a fire burning inside me
Ive bee waiting all this time
For a love i can call mine
As everyone around me
Is holding hands and making plans
You cant tell me it'll be OK
You cant ell me you know how i feel
For that smile you have is real
Mine are even hard to feel
I know a decision is hard to make
When you put your life at stake
Ive done it before
I promised not to go back
I wont break that promise
For i know how it feels
To have someone lie
But everyday wondering what if
Isn't something i wished for
All i wanted was a real smile
All i wanted was someone to call my own
All i wanted was a friend to be there
It seems like you don't know me
Cause i just keep slipping
farther and farther
I can see the bottom of the ocean
in my life
Cause all i do is put up strife
I'm tired of waiting
and waiting alone
I'm tired of trying and always failing
I'm telling you now this poem wouldn't win a prize
Its just all my feelings i keep inside
So handle it with care
For its like my heart
I still cant explain the tears that fall
So you cant help me..not at all
My happy streak is over
I'm back to my average ways
The normal depressing craze
I know it could be worse
And i know its not that bad
But when everyone around
Has hardly ever been sad
I cant take the torture
I cant take the pain
