Life

Afraid to say hello
but i did
facing that first kiss
could have hid
never though I'd feel bliss
now afraid
afraid that it will leave
afraid that when I say goodbye
it will be the last time
last time I see him
last time I hold him
last time I can laugh
Last time I can smile
hoping that I'm only like this for a while
hoping I don't scar myself again
hoping this moment stays in my mind
hoping he'll always be min
but still afraid
afraid of what I don't know
And it is that
That, that drives me onto the brink
of insanity
of a worse dementia
and it is I that takes the step over
on the top of this razor blade called life
sticking into my skin