When I was in your arms i felt as if some one actually cared. I felt like I was no longer alone in this big world. We had everything in common, we were hooked to each others hips nothing could part us. Having you next to me meant the world I adored you I couldn't have ever thought of you hurting me the way you did...That day you sat next to me and was unable to look me in the eyes because you were high hurt so much I went from being the happiest I had ever been to being back where i started hurt,in pain, and now confused. You said that you would never want to hurt me but then why would you do something that not only could jeopardize our amazing friendship but your hole life. You said you can't stop on the spot that it's to hard. But its harder to look in the eyes of someone you once cared for so much then realize there eyes were filled of bull shit from the beginning. As much as I love you I am not going to sit here wasting my life away on something i I never had. I tried to help you from time to time but you threw it back in my face and laughed. I cried myself to sleep for months because I couldn't let you go everything I touched, gazed at, herd reminded me of you and me. All the memories we created play over and over in my mind. Every night I lay in bed I think of when you first said that you would never leave me no matter what happens, i think of how you always wanted to cuddle, made fun of me when i was putting on my make up and called it my mask...I wish we were still like that but you have made it clear that there is no changing you I miss the old days of when we wrestled and played... maybe one day i will wish on a lucky shooting start and it will grant me my wish but wishing on shooting stars can only disappoint you for so long until you give up all faith...my love for you will never change i will keep my promise from now till the day i die.
