My suicide attempt

I glance down and realize
this time Ive gone too far
i took the pills and cut too deep
i am going to die

i look up at the moon and smile
this feeling of calm is worthwhile
this feeling I\'m going to end it all
this time I\'m going through that door

to that place they call death
where i can be me
i take a sip of my last cup of tea
and think of the people who will miss me

a tear slides down
then another and another
soon i cant pull myself together
i cry and cry till i cant anymore
GOD JAMES i shout what you do this for?

i lay down as i become dizzy
my vision becoming hazy
i look at my wrists and smile
it feels like Ive just ran for miles and miles

i lay there closing my eyes
and little do i realize I\'m not there
nope no more
i walked STRAIGHT THROUGH that door

and now in the armchair of death
i take my mask off and be me
not that person at school
i mean me the true me
the person i was too afraid to be...