I think how no one has ever dried my tears
And then when I look in the mirror
I see how stupid I am
And think, damn,
Why do I keep doing this?
And then, piss on this
I dont care about shit
When really this is it.
This is me, I gotta fit
Because if I dont Ill just fall in this hole
That Ive dug for myself, living like a mole.
Then I think, How come no one knows
That I feel like this? How come no one knows
When I feel like shit? Why do I sit here
Asking these questions, when I should be out there,
Finding the answers.
I call out, but no one answers.
I look around, but its all a blur.
I feel invisible, unlikable,
Like I'm incapable of being lovable.
When do I know, when do I stop?
How can I show that I can not stop
All this shit around me happening
When I cant focus in, its all confusing.
I act like I got it under control
But its days like these when I lose control.
Then I lose my mind
And I can not find
myself, I'm falling behind.
No one looks back
Because of the fact
that its myself I lack.
If they tried to look for me
They would get lost in the sea
of my lies, and they wouldn't see
me standing there because
Ive been lying to myself for years.
Now I'm stuck in oblivion
And I dont know where I'm living and
I cant change the past
but the present is moving too fast
for me to catch up and make it last.
Now Ill ask what should I do?
But its no use anymore
I have no one to run to anymore.
I lost the chance a while back when
I was trying to be someone I haven't ever been.
So it all goes back to me.
I hope one day someone sees
That you cant blame yourself for everything
But you can blame yourself for the certain things
That you've done, because you did it.
Your actions are your shit
and your responsibility, your problem,
and if you get yourself into trouble then
you better be able to get your ass back out again.
Remember the world doesn't revolve around you,
But you evolve around what you do.
So just live your life the way you chose
And take the responsibility when you lose.
